Maybe it’s the clouds that dance in the sky

Maybe it’s the wind, that if you listen close seems to cry

It could be the whispers of the people who were here before me

The awkward glances they throw, as if they hate me

All of that, makes it feel like home without the walls

The sound of waves, replaced the constant phone calls

Birds sing their song, as if to tell me they understand

That freedom is sometimes flying without the promise of land

It’s these see through waves, this see through sea

Love at first sight, captivated by its beauty

Where I am from, the water is muddy

The sky is dark, and silence is your enemy

But this is serenity

An escape from reality

The only explosion, I now hear are those of fish bombing

For some startling, for me it’s soothing

The only piece of nostalgia, I am allowed of a life lost

The damaged coral reef show the pain of each bomb tossed

The sea floor, resembles my mind, or rather my heart

I destroyed, for what I wanted to find, but it ripped me apart

To the point that I doubted every facet of my life

Where joy was only to be found inside of strife

Fish are their main source of food, so the means justify the end

Money was our goal, and to attain it, some rules had to bend

And those that played games with our money, rep or pride

Were taught lessons of integrity, honesty, not our fault some died

But each life my situation claimed, came to see me in my dreams

Not saying a word, simply watching in the dark surrounded by screams

With eyes burning for vengeance, a glare filled with hate

There is only so much a man can deny when faced with fate

That is why these see through waters are my new home

There are no lies hidden in the dark, here you see every stone

Forgiveness is given by a sea that doesn’t judge you

A sea that listen, without belittling you

Giving you a horizon you can aspire to

As everyday it covers you with a million possible things to do

This is the world as it should be

Not boxed into a corner where your only option is insanity

I had to reduce the numbers to ensure my safety

I had to turn my back, and burn down the family

It was the only way out, without betraying the old me

Sometimes flying without the promise of land is sanity

A killer, Psychopath, Mob boss, I was all of the above

I was told that I wasn’t able to love

But here, all that doesn’t matter, here, there is just me

Here they don’t like me, because I’m different from everybody

A simple reason to despise an outsider like me

But their hate, my past, my sanity, my dreams and everything else

Is nothing but a small price to pay, because now I sit in beauty

These see through waves, are it for me

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