I think love and I have unresolved issues, I crave its presence

My dreams of romance lost all their essence

The priority now is to be liked to be wanted

To be seen as someone you can fall in love with

But once obtained, the sensation fades

And often a new hunt is made

I will never define myself by what other people think

Yet my self-perception and those of females have a link

My search for love has twisted and morphed over the years

As it slept under a waterfall of uncried tears

I don’t question my urges I simply obey

Had to learn to listen to what they say

But I discovered that my feelings are afraid

My emotions are emotionally scarred from the games played

They’ve become weak excuses afraid to try

Their wings remain unclipped yet they’re afraid to fly

My emotions sit in a corner, staring at a phone that won’t ring

Bought birds for company yet they refuse to sing

Could be abandonment issues, why I keep a closed heart

Or that when I did give it away, it got ripped apart

Maybe losing family ran deeper than I thought

Maybe it’s embedded fear from the last time I fought

Maybe it’s his fault for not loving me like he should

Maybe it’s her fault for not being as honest as she could

Maybe it’s my fault for being so depressed all the time

Maybe it’s their fault for leaving me behind

I don’t really care knowing that won’t change a thing

Knowledge isn’t always power, sometimes wisdom means nothing

Sometimes words don’t help, more a burden than aid

Been depositing money since birth, still my dues aren’t paid

They call me selfish, find it strange to be alone

I tell them pity me, I have no place I feel at home

It’s the world that tears me down, so the world needs to heal me

Its people that break me so people should heal me

I hope you can read between the lines and find the words unsaid

If so, you are the best friend I ever had