My throat fills with the pain of loneliness…

With all my smooth words and all my fancy maneuvers, I always seem to escape love’s kiss…

My thoughts seem focused on one kiss…

My mind keeps asking my heart why we fear this…

This emotion that can run to the inner corners of your soul…

With every step gathered with every emotion mastered still no end goal…

My mind seems restless my soul uneasy…

But my spirit and heart drive me…

To be what I am…

A man…no a boy that can run through your hand like sand…

And leave but a pebble that will stick forever…

All I want is one smile from love but never and I do mean never…

Will this be …

I walk through rain hoping the tears from heaven will soothe me…

And wash away my pain as I now lay in a room covered by darkness I close my eyes and ask god why ……. me…

But my plea falls on ears of a deaf man…

All this talk of a grand plan but true be true a joke is what I am…

My every step seems to bring me deeper into the pits of agony…

And all the ladies that come in my web follow me…

And return broken and empty…

I ask for love and affection but one smile is all there is for me