I’m tied to the darkness of my room
With chains of loneliness I’m trying to bite through
And this bastard called silence, just won’t shut the fuck up
Reminding me and telling me, of my old and new slip ups
And I’m sitting there on my knees, unable to even zone out
Trying so hard to stop the tears from breaking out
Cus the silence just won’t shutup and there’s noone 2 come 2 my aid
There is no escape to be made the only option I have is to wait for the darkness to fade,
But it never does, this shit is perpetual
And I swear to u, right outside my window I can hear the light shine
Whisling this happy tune of bliss teasing me jus messing wit my mind
And the only way out, is to open the door and run outside
But that son of a bitch standing out there is the reason I hide
I can hear him breathing, scratching the door with his nails
He is waiting till my soul breaks and my heart fails
And every now and then he whispers these sweet nothings to get me to open the door, And to be honest with you, I don’t think I can fight him anymore, My patience was only strong enough to accept these 4 walls and the screams they throw back at me
After I realized who stood behind that door my sense of humour ran on empty,
Some of you know him as depression, despair, loneliness or misery,
To me he is an old friend
Im trying not to talk to anymore
But its as if his existence depends on me
And lately I felt him lurking behind every corner I was afraid 2 look at
I can just see him contemplating on ways to get our friendship back
And 2 b honest wit u I do miss him cus his presence was comforting
The lack of needing 2 b a part of sumthing is so empty yet refreshing
But the risk of losing yourself within yourself is so high
And once you drown in that darkness, there are no more tears to cry
And Im not ready 2 be completely happy, but I don’t want to go back
I wanna stay right in the middle and stay on this ordinary track
I want to be normal, The problem is I know Im not,
I want to be happy with all my heart, The problem is, I don’t know where it is
