Seriously though, what have I done to deserve this
Is this sum kind of karmic retribution r does my luck just have a glitch
Because this far exceeds the simple life is a bitch
You have any idea what it feels like to come home scared
Have that anxious feeling run all the way down to your bone
Have you looking at your floor HOPING you’re alone
Walking on shells while pushing your peripheral vision to the limit
Everything moves but nothing moves, paranoia grips your heart
And that feeling of comfort while you’re at home is ripped apart
I do not feel safe, afraid to go to the bathroom in my own place
Because I might have to walk past somebody, I am not happy
And the places I have seen them, are forever been tainted
What they walk on, I throw away, they know how to ruin a day
And just to clear this shit up, Im messy Im not dirty
There’s a difference between the 2 dont go saying stuff that aint true
Im solution orientated to the max,
so how life gonna give me something I cant solve, that’s just messed up
Put my left over food in zipped locked bags, they still here
Got 16 repellents scattered around my house, they still here
Stopped opening my windows, these bastards still here
This shit’s just unfair feel like my only option left is 2 not eat at home
And if that don’t work, motherfucker just NOT go home
My mind is breaking, these monsters are ruining me
Got me afraid to invite over company, got my head on a swivel
Cause I know they are out there, they are out to get me
They wont rest till they ruin it all, everything is now dirty
Scared to take out the trash cause they might be in it
A vicious cycle and Im trapped in it
My question is, what have I done to deserve this
If I did a bunch of good things, could it stop this
I will donate money, I will help the homeless
I will run a marathon for charity
I need some piece of mind, I just want it how it used to be
